What's a life to live
when you've taken away
all the options, now gone,
quiet and frail you lay.
Rest your head on your bed
dig your feet in the sand.
Then stand up and sink in
right where you stand.
Spiraling downwards,
your mind starts to turn.
Your stomach, it squirms.

Single cell resuscitated
while you're still feeling nauseated

Split and split
keep splitting
die.

Live and live
keep living
multiply.


Keep keeping time
just keep right on it.
Fall to your knees while your head spins
and vomit.
And take in her perfume
through your nostrils again
in your mind as you kneel and stomach distends
and compresses
and releases last night's mistake.
You both tried so hard to sleep
but kept each other awake.
And you fumbled around
as you tried to connect
but your love's been outwitted
by mixed drinks and sex
and your clothes are misplaced and lost in the forest
that you find yourself lost inside
and she calls to you
you smell her scent.
She beckons you...
you reply to what's been sent to you.
And you continue to follow her sweet voice
as you continue through the forest
your head starts to spin
and the forest deteriorates
and starts to decay.
And the world spins
as your head spins,
but in opposite ways.
And you can't tell left from right from wrong,
although you knew it all along.
And everything starts to slow down
and stops
But your mind keeps on spinning
and starts going insane.
Try to get back on track
but can't find the right plane
try to get yourself home
but just missed the last train.
Tried to find a cure
but took the wrong kind of tonic,
so your head keeps on spinning
and you fall to your knees and vomit.
Then you turn and lay on your back and then stare
straight at the ceiling, then run your fingers through her hair
as you walk through your mind
in despair and despondent.
You make your mark
and just keep right on it.
But your head won't
stop spinning
and you stand on your knees,
hands raised towards the sky
to find an escape,
but you just can't die.

Oh, no...
that would be the easy way out.
Then,
just as all hope fades
and you're about to give up.
you see a green vine appear
and you grab it and pull
and up you go
up towards an escape,
an exit you found
in the midst of this maze.
And you see a light
and you keep climbing up
and poke your head out of the sand
and you see her face as she says...
"I'm not sorry,
I regret nothing,
but this won't happen again."